Dear people,
It's been such a blessed week. I feel like I should share bits of a talk that Sandy recently gave in her first sacrament meeting as a member. With her permission of course.
"I was praying for direction and a little inspiration and I waited for that still small voice. What I heard was, "you are an onion." A what?
I've though about onions a lot this week. When the missionaries first met me they probably thought I was a lot like this onion--flaky on the outside and tough underneath. I did show a tough side to the world. I was bruised and dented..angry and disillusioned with life. I hid inside that tough layer--it was my comfort zone.
I didn't make it easy for the missionaries (I call them the mercenaries). They just kept coming back. They shared the Plan of Salvation and encouraged me to read the Book of Mormon.
Little by little cracks were appearing in the onion.
I realized I thought of Jesus as a historical figure. I believed He had done the things I'd read and heard about but that was a long time ago and not relevant to my life. Now, you can hear 1,000 times that Christ died for you but until you open up and allow yourself to internalize it...you hold on to the layers that separate you for Jesus.
In Matthew 26:39 Christ asks God if there is any way to change what was about to happen."O my Father, if it be possible let this cup pass from me..." Now right there is a colon which indicates a pause. I hear God say to Jesus, "My Son, I wish it could be different, but it can't. You see, in about 2,000 years there will be an onion in my garden. I love her and I want her to be with me again. But the only was is for you to do this for her."
Jesus did this for me not knowing if I would reach out if I would make the choice to come to him.
He did this for all of us.
If you don't know Jesus or if you do but there are layers between you...ask if you are an onion too."
I was so grateful to read this. Sometimes it's hard serving in the bible belt because so many people are convinced that they know their Savior already. It was a good reminder to me that ultimately we come to know Christ through His restored gospel, and it's a constant effort. We're all onions!
Love you!
Sister Kristen Johns