Dear people,
We went to Natural Bridge with the Paris Hermanas last Monday! It was very happy happy last hurrah for Sister Israelsen.
Tuesday, we drove to Louisville with a new sister in the ward who's starting to homeschool her kids TJed style, so needless to say we had lots to talk about. Picked up the one and only Sistaaaa Endemann!! I absolutely love her already. She and I play basketball in the mornings and she brought a rice maker and we act like four year olds all the time except when we're being very mature. Yes yes. I know she is an STL at this time for a reason, because there was some kind of crazy stuff that went down with a few of our sisters this week and I have no earthly clue how I would've handled it without her.
Something that I've experienced a lot on my mission and a little before is trying to help people who are struggling emotionally. It brings me so much joy to help people who hurt and who are confused find just a little bit of light to make it through. That has always required me to be strong emotionally and spiritually. Sometimes that's so difficult because for whatever reason, I tend to FEEL not only my own pain, but other people's pain. I remember breaking down in my first few weeks, probably to the bewilderment of my trainer, when we had investigators who were hurting. I've always wondered WHY on EARTH do I need to feel that soul-wrenching, heart-shattering pain FOR someone else? How does that help them that I'm torn up for them? What purpose does that serve? This week, it hit me.
"And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind...
And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities..."
Someone infinitely greater than all of us experienced an unimaginable amount of pain. Physical pain yes. Cancer and broken bones and childbirth. But also what is sometimes harder to heal--mental anguish, emotional agony. WHY on EARTH did Christ do that?
The answer I pondered this week is one word: Understanding.
"That his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities."
(Alma 7:11-12)
Understanding, not in theory, but in experience. According to the flesh. So He could know how to heal us. I have experienced the physical and spiritual healing of the Atonement. I have also experienced Christ healing me mentally and emotionally. And I'm so grateful for that!
Love,
Sister Johns